Torn between wanting to play Tera and drawing because I know I should but I know that if I did I would just think about playing Tera so I guess that I should just play the game wow that solves my whole problem I am a problem solving machine whoohoo.
A problem solving machine that got her new tea today. Rose tea fuck yes!
WHO JUDGES YOU FOR TRYING TO KEEP YOUR HEAD ABOVE WATER, THAT’S SO STUPID ON SO MANY LEVELS. I’m happy things are looking up for you guys though!!! :D
I know it’s pretty fuckin dumb but I was talking to an old “friend”of mine (thankfully it’s nobody from college! Us SVA kids are alright ;D ) and I was kinda bitching about not having the time (because I literally don’t most days) and when I do it’s hard to focus because money and they were like basically telling me that’s an excuse and that I need to try harder and to get over it like ????????
If it weren’t for Jared’s family being able to lend us some money here and there we would have been kicked out of this place.
But his paycheck comes in finally next week and we are going to be re-doing our budget and we will be safe and I am so excited for that to happen. It’s going to be such a load off oh man.
I’ve been being more productive recently but not many finishes alas, and I actually really need to re-evaluate my vision/idea coherency etc. but yes! And Jared recognizes that I’ve put most everything on hold for him and has been the best ever ugh
ALSO We need to skype or something sometime soon cuz I miss you bb! <3 <3
I think I will actually be able to focus on my own goals once I see that paycheck come in and I won’t have to always be switched on into paranoia mode about whether or not I’ll be able to make rent this month.
I know people think that that is just an excuse and if I really cared then I would still be working hard at my art anyway but I think that that is fucking rude as hell sorry that I am trying not to be evicted and stuff that is a bit more important to me than being set back a bit with regard to my art goals.
I just won’t be able to unwind until I see his check in the flesh and know 1000% that we won’t be in the danger zone any longer. Until then I can’t think about much except bills and wondering if I remembered to pay everything or if I even CAN pay everything without asking others for assistance. Then we can BOTH move forward.
Yesterday my co-worker made me her special coffee, which consists of an espresso shot, butter, coconut oil, honey, and cinnamon. Then she blends it all together till it’s frothy and guys I thought butter in coffee would be horrific but it was actually really delicious! Odd, but delicious! I had to add a little sugar to mine but other than that, wow!
Unfortunately I couldn’t finish it though. I only really drink coffee, especially espresso, when I am one step above the walking dead because it’s usually too much and I start shaking which isn’t fun but it’s something I would drink again for sure :)